About: The First Post

Hi! Maybe there's a reason for your stumbling across this blog, and i do hope it's for the better. Let me tell you why i decided to start this blog.

Just last night, i read the promotional text for a book in the Kindle store, and it goes something like "Don't just be a fan of Jesus, be His follower. To be his follower, stop living for yourself and give yourself to others." That idea stuck in my head, and i thought it would be perfect for this train-of-thought spiritual blog that i have been longing to start. And i'm starting now.

First of all, i believe that God is greater than "i", so i oftentimes not capitalize the word "i". And i am a Christian-- a Catholic who was raised as such, and has just recently returned to his spiritual roots after several years of being lukewarm. As of this writing, i am blessed to have parents to guide me through life, a younger sister and a younger brother, who help develop in me patience and understanding, and a wonderful relationship with a wonderful woman, whom, notwithstanding our being raised in different Christian communities, brought me closer to God by sharing to me her zeal for her faith, which led me to explore my own faith and grow deeper in it.

As of now, i enjoy reading literature which relates to my faith, secretly wanting to become an apologist (More on that later. Or! you could drop me a line if you want to know more). My faith has brought me strength and perseverance to face the challenge of being a law student-- i struggle everyday to study law, and, being brought up by two lawyer parents, i would often ask myself and ask God if it is really His dream for me. And today, the current answer would be "yes".

You see, i was an achiever in grade school, and during half of my high school years. i think i was being brought up to become a lawyer, as i was immersed in such an environment. But i also remember writing songs at the age of 8, recording songs at the age of 12, and writing more songs and playing in bands at the age of 15. It often got in the way of my studies, but i felt strongly about it, and believed in my talent. My parents were proud that i wrote my high school batch's graduation song. They were also proud when some of my songs, recorded in my bedroom, were played on the radio, and when i got interviewed on-air about my music. But of course, they want me to become a lawyer.

To cut this potentially long story short, i would often think of what would happen if i pursued music. i honestly don't know. i would often say "i'm fine with having a dead-end job and pursuing music on the side". A priest told me to listen to my heart. How would i know if it was my heart talking and not my head?

But then i thought that giving up your will is what Jesus would want us to do. Didn't He submit to His Father's will? And that's what i think of right now. i remember reading a Bible verse which kind of said, "it's hard to do what i need to do, so now i do what i hate". It's kind of negative, but i think it applies to the idea of giving up your will and letting God take over. And i'm letting God take over. i'm living for others. And my studying law would constitute living for my parents

Bookmark this blog! i would be sharing with you more about myself in the following blog posts. But first, i have to study. God bless you, and may your prayers be answered.

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